As my best friend put it: “Steph, if you think you have lesbian drama now, getting involved with that crew will be a vortex of shit down your throat. Those lesbians throw barstools and drink at the bars every single night.”
TIME TO STAY AWAY
“Still, I wonder. Why--how--have I managed to learn these things while others have not? Why have I managed somehow to leave behind at least for now what looks like wreckage, and shape something solid from my life? My prognosis, after all, was very poor. In idle moments, I still slide my fingers under the sleeves of my shirt and trace the raised white nubs of scars that track my arms from years and years of cutting. How did I learn to stop cutting and collapsing, and can I somehow transmit this ability to others? I don't know. It's a core question for me in my work. I believe my strength has something to do with memory, with that concept of fluid time. For while I recall with clarity the terror of abuse, I also recall the green and lovely dream of childhood, the moist membrane of a leaf against my nose, the toads that peed a golden pool in the palm of my hand. Pleasures, pleasures, the recollections of which have injected me with a firm and unshakable faith. I believe Dostoevsky when he wrote, 'If man has one good memory to go by, that may be enough to save him.' I have gone by memory."
A Few Pictures
Bad First Drafts
Catch Me On Thought Catalog
Drink vodka until $750/month feels affordable
I survived! I’m alive! Time to get drunk with my best friend downtown.
"We sank lower and lower in our love-lined lead-lined coffin. Telling the truth, she said, was a luxury we could not afford and so lying became a virtue, an economy we had to practice."
Jeanette Winterson “Written on the Body”
Anonymous asked: Are you gonna be at EDC this year?
Hopefully! I’m spending some money on world pride so I don’t know if I can fit it but I’ll probably be at the Chicago one since my ex lives there and would let me stay at his place hahaha
my date just showed me her phone and the most recent thing googled is if murder has a statute of limitations.